My goal in July was to end October with a clear set of life reaffirming daily habits: exercise, meditation, mindfulness, gratitude, time devoted to my loved ones and to my writing and creativity, and growth. I think I’ve narrowed down what I need to be doing there and have set up my schedule to reflect that, unfortunately my job isn’t in a place where it doesn’t interfere with everything on that list on a regular basis. I’m also clearly seeing that if I want that to change that I do need to make my career growth and development a priority as well, so I shuffled the deck a bit to reflect that.
- My Health
- Improving Relationships
- Creative Pursuits
- Career Ambitions
- Purpose
My Health
This past week I had surgery to correct a pituitary adenoma apoplexy during which they removed what’s (visibly) left of the tumor. Once my restrictions are cleared I’m going back to my normal diet and exercise regime and I’m hopeful that this time around I’ll start seeing some results. The last couple of months my ACTH levels were going down pretty steadily and there isn’t any reason why that shouldn’t continue to be the case. Well other than optimism bordering on hubris?!
Improving Relationships
I haven’t done much on this one other than committing myself to two things; no longer assuming or thinking for others and no longer excusing behavior. On the former, I’ve found that I’ve fallen into the habit of deciding what other people mean/intend/want based on their actions. Which isn’t at all fair to them and results in plenty of frustration on both parts – to stop this I’ve just started asking for clarification. For the latter, I’ve determined that I keep too many relationships dragging on an on thinking that ‘maybe they’ll change’ or ‘maybe they didn’t mean it’. Again this isn’t exactly fair to either of us so I’m now simply ending relationships or letting them end naturally as a result. I’ve found that with the four where this came into play that no one questioned or fought to keep things going – a positive sign I think.
Creative Pursuits
Well there is this… and in general writing more… which is a regular struggle but I feel like I’m gaining some ground at least. Along with that I’m doing more and more crafting, photography and in general enjoying, really living in the moment, with everything I do that has a creative aspect. I’m hoping to expand my scope as I go but at this moment, I’m very happy with what I’m doing.
As to the rest, well those are both TBD right now. I feel like I have enough on my to-do list with the above and the thought of adding time or cycles to the other two just causes anxiety. My plate is pretty full! That’s about all I’ve got for this month, I’m going to continue on with the plans I have and see how I feel at the end of the month about what I’ve accomplished and learned along the way.
Vibrant Thing 